As Starseeds, Lightworkers, or whatever you prefer to be known as, we step onto our spiritual journey with high expectations. We KNOW we have so much that we can give to the world. We learn how to move energy within our bodies, how to store Qi, and how to direct Source energy towards others to aid in their healing. We see people in need and we do not step past them. We feel as if we are called upon to give of what we can in order to help this beautiful world and all its inhabitants rise to its full promise.
Some of us become key players in the local community. Some move into the world of study and the deepening knowledge that has been passed to us through the eons. Some, eventually, may become Teachers, leaders – and all of us run the risk of forgetting that we cannot be of the best assistance to others that we are capable of being if we have not done the work on Self.
We struggle with work, family, finance, security, safety, equality and so much more. We worry about such things even as we know that our one lonely voice is not going to make a big difference. And we see that however much we talk about Starseeds coming together as One, we don’t seem able – yet – to achieve it. We hang on to the dream that we are separate. We haven’t learned how to travel within to the Place of Stillness where we are all One. We have to go deep within Self to find that place, and that can be difficult journey to take.
We hold in our hearts this dream of helping to bring this world to a state of Nirvana, but it all seems so hard. Nothing seems to change, and I ask, could that be because we are all so fixated on fixing things that are not broken? We need the difficult in order to understand what is easy. We need the darkness, because without it we would never understand light. I personally know how blessed I am only because of the hardship I have experienced.
The sharing of yourself requires balance, agility, knowledge, an understanding of when to step forward and when to step back. It requires that you know when to share yourself and when not to, so that others may have the opportunity to experience their own life lessons. The sharing of yourself requires that you know when your own Ego is in play, and that requires that you have first done the work on Self.
If we can each do that work on Self, there will be, indeed, nothing left to fix.
A few years ago I lived in a beautiful tourist town on Queensland’s east coast, and every year between late July and mid October, a different type of tourist would arrive that would lift the excitement of the town, and its human visitors, to new heights.
As a manager of several holiday resorts, I was in the thick of it, and every year had the opportunity to go out into the bay and interact with these amazing animals. First would come the teenagers; then the females and new babies, closely followed by the males. It is tourist season for Humpback Whales.
These animals are fascinating. They spend all summer in the Antarctic, eating themselves silly and putting on thousands of pounds of blubber before starting the long swim up the east coast of Australia to the Great Barrier Reef where the pregnant females would give birth. A relatively short distance from the birthing areas is a huge, wide bay protected by K’gari Island. A safe haven to spend a few weeks teaching the juveniles the skills they would need to survive the long journey home. The last year that I was out on the water during whale season, the bay was described as being ‘whale soup’ with an estimated 15,000 humpback whales stopping off for R&R.
I could talk forever about these wonderful creatures of the deep. Of how they would come up to the boats and that you could never be sure who was more amused by whom? They have just as great a curiosity about us, as we do of them. They were there on holiday and wanted to see all the sights – us!
These particular whales teach us a valuable lesson about emotion, vulnerability, and the power of resurrection. A little further south is Morton Island which, between 1952 and 1962, was home to a whaling station which decimated the humpback population from tens of thousands to under 500. Every single one of the whales visiting the wide bay this season, are the children and grandchildren of those survivors.
Whales are known as Earth’s Record Keepers, and it is said that these whales carry with them the stories of their lost families, and that they return to the bay each year in honour of their ancestors. They remind us to honour the past but to also examine how that past has brought you to this point. Check if you have been diving too deeply into murky waters and are feeling the pressure. It could be time to rise to the surface and release, with a powerful out-breath, all that holds you back.
Listen to your inner voice. Listen to the communication between yourself and family and friends. Seek support in community, and bridge any gaps that may be causing separation between you and those you love. Be willing to go the distance to achieve your goals.
Take a deep breath – gather your joy, and your curiosity, and go make a big splash!!
There’s a 94% genetic similarity between human and baboon, and as I began my research for this article I had the rather humorous thought that the other 6% is probably related to the amount of hair that one or the other of these species carries! Certainly it was a common joke in my family that my dad was descended from apes!
It is very possible to see our humanity in this magnificent animal. He is a social creature who takes family – and especially parenting and defending against danger – very seriously. He is filled with curiosity; and enjoys the challenge of learning and exploring new things.
When baboon comes into your field, you need to have a good look at what is happening within your personal life and in the world around you. There could be something that is pulling you beyond your comfort zone. Take care not to be carried away. Stay grounded and take time to seek your place of sanctuary within meditation. That place of peace and security is exactly the right place to be within as you look at what is happening in your life that need to be resolved.
Baboon will help you. He is comfortable in any situation and is not afraid to show his emotions. Baboon will cry loudly when needed and doesn’t care who is watching. Sometimes that can be the most courageous thing you can do.
Baboon is considered as the being who holds the greatest wisdom in the animal kingdom, and his message is for us to always be responsible for our choices in life. Our choices and the actions we take are the very things that shape our lives. Be aware of how much you share with others and remember that you might be judged by these things. Don’t be afraid to let your personality and love of family shine out, and remember that there is strength in allowing others to see your emotions.
As I write this I am also working as a volunteer for our town’s annual UFO Festival. It’s the only UFO Festival in the Southern Hemisphere and for a tiny town in the Far North of Queensland, it’s a HUGE event. When octopus came forward as a Power Animal with a message for todays reading, I just had (with the aid of AI) to make a picture of an alien octopus making a splash landing in a flying saucer!
There is a question amongst scientific circles that octopus may have arrived on Earth during the Cambrian Explosion – that is a ‘biological big bang’ approximately 538.8 million years ago. Fossils certainly show that this was when they suddenly appeared. The theory involves something called ‘panspermia’ – the possibility that life is seeded between planets by space debris, and that octopus, with it’s very different DNA and RNA from anything else on Earth, could have arrived in such a way.
Whether by panspermia or home-grown, octopuses are fascinating creatures with their flexible bodies, camouflage abilities and non-centralised brain. Did you know that they use tools? They use tools to hunt and for protection. They even work collaboratively with other species! They can be mischievous, and have been known to do things just for fun.
They are intelligent, flexible, and adaptable which shows us that octopus energy can help us when we need to work out something that is tricky in our lives. If something captures an octopus, they will shed an arm or two into order to escape and continue their journey. They can easily and quickly change direction and they are masters of wiggling out of tight places. They travel with the flow and not fighting against the current.
For us, it’s about looking honestly at our emotions and attachments, especially in our past experiences, and knowing that we can safely let them go; knowing that we have the ability to regenerate into something much better. We don’t have to keep following the same path – changing direction can be exactly what you need to do, even if you can’t see it. Be patient with yourself – some things can be camouflaged until the right time, and often, with octopus energy around you, you will look back and see that all along, there were unseen hints pointing you in your new direction.
Octopus is intelligent. He uses tools in the same way that primates do – for hunting, protection, and safety. He is resilient and determined, and is letting you know that you have everything you need to get the job done. Use your brain, study, be flexible, understand your potential, and above all else…
Who has never gone outside at night and looked up to the moon and felt the tug of connection? Yearning even. Yearning for what, you might ask? This is very much dependant on each individual person who bathes in her light – and where they are in their journey through the ebb and flow of life.
She represents wisdom, she is grandmother. She reminds us of the cycles of birth and death – the cycles of life that we are all bound to follow in the same way as the oceans also follow her cycles.
She is mystery: she sails, serenely, above us, but will not share all that she is. She keeps one face firmly turned away from us. She tells us that some things are meant to remain mysterious until we have grown enough to understand.
She rules our bodies and our emotions through our subconscious mind. That can be understood through quantum physics which explains that everything has an operating frequency and that the full moon’s frequency pulls on our subconsciousness allowing information – memories for example – to rise to the surface. For some that can feel like a glorious pull of connectedness although for others it can be quite uncomfortable and emotionally hard.
For some, the moon represents romance and love; for others she opens their world to possibilities and potentialities. For me, I feel the connection to her very strongly. She brings to me a feeling of stillness, of quiet calm; a deep cleansing of the soul; an immersion in the waters of life. And if I can float in water under the glow of a full moon… that is my place of peace.
Things happen in life that are wrong. Families argue, drift apart or explode in arguments and drama. It doesn’t matter the reason – the story. What matters is that unless people can come together and talk openly and honestly, the story will not change. At least, not for the better.
The stories we tell ourselves about our lives and our interactions with other people are simply our perspective, and our perspective will be unbalanced if we don’t have the other side of the story. The same tale told from another person’s perspective is very likely to be different. Families are frequently destroyed because people cannot or will not see any perspective other than their own. And the destruction can span generations.
Unreasonable expectations
I know a person who, was deeply in love and wanted, eventually to marry his girlfriend. He knew he was too young at 17 and that he had mountains to climb first and so they planned and prepared. He was a committed, organised person and he knew exactly what he wanted his world to look like, but his parents decided to move to another country and were insistent that the young man abandon all his plans, and his fiancé, and go with them.
The family argued. The parents forbade their son to remain in the country where his life was laid out. He had a place at university, a girlfriend he knew was a soul mate and even the opportunity of work once university was completed. He didn’t want to give up his planned and hoped for future for the unknown, without his girlfriend, and in a new country.
The parents did everything in their power to make him go with them. They told all their extended family not to give their son a place to stay. They thought that without a home he would be forced to accompany them.
The son stood his ground; emancipated himself from his family.
They didn’t listen – so they couldn’t understand
The parents didn’t take time to listen to why their son wanted to remain and just tried to bull-doze him into complying without ever explaining why. The son, overwhelmed and distressed by his parents’ apparent disregard for what he wanted to do, walked away from his parents and his brothers and sisters. Neither party stopped to really talk about what was in their hearts. None of them truly listened and, as a result, there was little hope of moving forward with love and understanding. They were each trying to impose their own desires on the other.
The parents eventually grew old and died. The son too died, and now younger generations are left with a wound that they do not understand because they were not part of the original story.
This rift started over 50 years ago has now reached down to affect the fourth generation. This is a Ancestral Karmic Imbalance. It takes different forms with each generation, but the original Energy is there – and it can be equally destructive.
It can be righted by simply, and openly, by listening to the story – from every perspective – and then allowing the healing to take place.
Better still, when faced with a question, look at all sides and listen to all the stories. Be prepared to allow that your way may not be the best way or the only way.
I’ve always been, in many ways, a ‘physical’ person. As a child it was ballet, as an adult I became an elite athlete. That young person lived in a fantasy world of stage lights and dreams; the adult ran up mountains – just because.
The physical me was my way of hiding from the world. As a dancer, I could live in any role I chose, be recognised and applauded; as an athlete I could challenge my body in a way that I did not know how to challenge the world around me. Always, I was hiding from my true self.
In 1997, a lifetime of stress caught up with me and I became physically ill. In pain so severe I was told I would need to use a wheelchair – but that was not a life I could envisage. It was not a life where I could use my body to emotionally escape. I began the work needed to change my physical world of pain, into something far more functional.
In 2015 I was in a good place. Physically active despite still being in pain, life was good, but I still carried the emotional weight of my life. Then I found the person who was to become my Spiritual Teacher, mentor and friend – Essence Ka tha’ras. She has taught me to understand from an Energetic viewpoint, the story of my life. She taught me how to re-write that story. It’s a journey I am still on, and right now, as I write this, I am at another crux point.
One of the things Essence teaches is that you cannot separate the physical from the spiritual, and I have grown to fully embrace that Truth. I recently turned 67 years of age and the abuses of a physical past are doing their level best to catch up and remind me of each and every ache and pain. Then, an accident 4 years ago, meant my physical mobility decreased again, resulting in my questioning my future. I can choose to live comfortably, and happily as a fat, un-fit, older woman and, perhaps, pass from this life in another 10-15 years, or I can step up the work to change that, and potentially have many more years to explore this Universe – this beautiful Reality that holds so much knowledge, and mystery.
I spoke in my last blog about making a commitment to Self, and when you get right down to it, I am looking at making a “Do-or-Die” commitment. My Teacher reminded me this morning of my deep-felt need to study; that I have expressed a desire, and commenced the work, to dig deeper into that world of Energy, Frequency, Vibration. I want to learn from the Masters and use that knowledge to colour my world and the world around me – and to do this I need to have all my tools available to me – my physicality as well as emotional, mental and spiritual aspects.
And as I write this, it appears that I have made that commitment, that Vow to Self. Of course, I’m totally knackered after spending just 10 minutes on the treadmill, followed by a few ballet exercises, stretching, Tai Chi and some balance work.
Right now it feels good, but I do wonder how hard it is going to be to get out of bed tomorrow!
Several years ago, I heard about the power of manifestation…
At the time I’d set up a pretty full-on gym in the garage. I’m an ex-fitness fanatic and was working hard to recover after illness. I’d hop on the treadmill and as I was walking, I’d think about the things that could make my life perfect.
I never did fall for the bunkum of manifesting a new car, money in the bank, an over-seas holiday etc. – there are so many things wrong with that train of thought – but it did get me thinking about how I would like my life to look in the future. I knew, even in those early days of my spiritual journey, that you can wish and pray and talk all you want, but if you are not prepared to put in the hard-yakka, nothing is going to materialise out of thin air. I knew that if I wanted these things in my life, I had to do my fair share of the manifesting. Source, God, Spirit (whatever name you prefer) was not going to just drop stuff into my lap because I really, really, really want it!
I ended up with a fairly short list, and I walked for hours on that treadmill as I spoke that list out loud. It was like chanting. The words timed to the rhythm of the steps I took. I had to walk miles each session because I also felt the need to explain exactly why each point was important; how I, specifically, wanted each thing to look; why I didn’t want too much of each good thing – da da da….
Moving forward….
About a month or so ago, I realised that something was really weird. I was in a very strange state of mind and it took me a while to work it out. I am happy.
I can honestly say that I can count on one hand the times I have felt this happy. The birth of my daughter over 40 years ago. The birth of my eldest grandchild 18 years ago. Very, very few other times. It took me a while to work out why, but almost all of those things I wanted in my life as I walked on that treadmill, are here. The reality isn’t how I envisaged things to turn out, but they are the reality I now live in. And it is good.
A good example: At the time, many people told me that if I was going to ask for money in my manifestation hopes, ask for a lot. Don’t be stingy. Go for the Big Bucks! Me? That didn’t sit comfortably. I just wanted enough so that I could pay my bills and have a little left over so I could save up for small luxuries. What came about is that I am now an Aged Pensioner. I have a regular income of about half of the breadline wage and which has very little room for fluff – but, my bills are paid, I share a wonderful house on the water (another of my desires) at (almost unbelievable in today’s world) a rent I can afford.
I sought good health, as I walked that treadmill. Good health is a very relative thing. If I look at my point of view from 25 years ago when I was at the top of my game, I’m a wreak! If I look at my health from the point of view of my doctor telling my that the periods of paralysis are going to get worse and I won’t ever be pain free so I should start to use a wheelchair, my current health is fantastic! It’s just a matter of how you look at things in your life.
These things that have brought about a fulfillment in my life, and this strange and wonderful feeling of contentment and happiness, didn’t come about because of the chanting as I walked that treadmill, they came about because I put in the hard work. They came about because I did my damn best to look for the bling in every dark corner – and I have been well-challenged in that arena – and not allowed myself to wallow (at least not for long) in despair.
One of the things I asked for was time to look after me, to do the things I want to do and not be at everyone’s beck and call. I’m one of those people who has a very strong need to help others – and it’s caused me no end of problems because it’s often been at the expense of having time to look after me. The isolation periods of the last couple of years has been a blessing in disguise for me as it highlighted a need to withdraw from the addiction of social media, to pull back from trying to set up classes and workshops aimed at helping others deal with their anxiety, fear etc. It was time to STOP. So I did. And there it was – time to do the work on ME.
On this Spiritual path I have done the hard work that has brought me to this point in my growth. I am currently in the midst of a shift where I can choose to step up and take that work further. Where I can study, dig even deeper into the Energies of this beautiful world we call home. Or I can sit back and feel good about where I have arrived. A place of reasonable comfort with enough funds to pay my bills – and that feeling of happiness!
I understand the value of pushing things a bit further. Dramas that many of us face can definitely push you out of your comfort zone during the early stages of this life-journey, and maybe, as I travel further, my comfort zone will be rocked a few more times. Somehow, I don’t believe that the drama of my life up to now will continue at that intensity. I am aware that as drama appears, I have a choice. It is my reaction that causes the problems. Hopefully I’ve learned enough that I can make the wise choices.
Do I believe in the power of manifestation? You betcha I do. But not at the level of ask / pray / focus hard enough and it will materialise like magic. No. You have to do the hard work. The work on Self – physically, spiritually, emotionally, mentally, and the practical work of having a goal to aim for – and going after it. You have to decide what is realistic and what isn’t. It’s the adult version of the mother telling the child that ‘Just because you want it, it doesn’t mean you can have it!”
I saw a post on Facebook asking people “what kept you alive when nothing seem able to save you”. That post triggered a memory of me, in my office, not long after my husband had passed on, sitting at the computer, headphones on and the volume really loud so that I didn’t have to listen to, or deal with, any of the crap going on around me.
Symphony of Sorrowful Songs by Gorecki was one of only two things that kept me on this earth when my husband died. It starts so softly and gently that you don’t really hear anything for the first 2 minutes, and then it just builds and builds.
I’ve you’ve not listened to this, the title may be enough to make you wonder why, when you are feeling at the absolute bottom of the dung hill would you want to wallow in deep, dark music? Those who turn to music to help them get through the hard times will understand – the music you listen to can be a reflection of the emotions you have rolling through you when are either unable to fully express those emotions, or have pushed them down so deep that you can’t express them. It’s like doing mirror work; delving deep knowing that once you hit rock bottom, the only way is up.
When you find that one track and you keep playing it over and over again, you may start to recognise the beauty and grace in the flow of the melody and you find that even though the music almost always brings tears, they are cleansing. This was my ‘bling’ in one of the dark times of my life. I literally wallowed in this music for several months. It became like a drug, and without it I could not exist. It seemed to be the only thing around me that reflected back the emotions I tried to hide from the world and that often threatened to drown me.
Symphony of Sorrowful songs by Gorecki is like a sunrise over the ocean. Living in the darkness is not comfortable. It can be scary, especially when the future is unknown, but like the sunrise, this music guides you through your personal dark nights and shows you a promise of peace.
Sunrise from my garden – Auri’An
As you listen, there is the quiet expectation of the time before the first hint of light becomes visible. The darkest place. It’s quiet. So quiet and deep that you barely register the sound, but bit by bit like the pre-dawn glow of the sunrise, the music starts to infiltrate, it starts to make itself known to your awareness.
It’s heavy, dark, and it feels like a very familiar reflection of the darkness and struggle in your own heart. But like that sunrise, it keeps coming on in waves that bring the inevitable lifting of the darkness. As the waves of music swell, for a moment you recognise the emotion that you hold under tight control, so that to others, you show not the sadness that is your constant companion, but rather your hard-won strength, and that even though you may be struggling right now, you will survive this. It is a recognition of how you get through your day – the heaviness pushed to the background and overlaid with something lighter that allows you to do what you need to do in order to simply exist.
And still this music climbs, bringing the Energy from your Root Chakra, through Sacral, Solar Plexus and coming up to your Heart Chakra, bringing the promise of eventual Peace. Your heart rate starts to slow and, as with the sound of the ocean waves, you allow the music to wash over you, relaxing physical tension, washing away the false-front you hold like a shield against the world, and allowing a release of emotion.
Then the sun peaks over the horizon – a moment of stillness, before the Soprano voice joins in and so perfectly expresses what is in your heart, building and building until you feel almost overwhelmed. The waves of Energy keep climbing and you recognise the cycles that occur in life: the humdrum repetitions that sometimes provide a lifeline; the almost-too intense times when you simply don’t know what to do and you just exist through the tempest; the quieter times where you can pause and take a breath. These cycles? They are Life. The sun is risen.
In writing this, I sat and listened to this music for the first time in years. Those life cycles have moved on and although there has been much drama, pain and loss, there has also been much joy and love and laughter. Life has been lived. I still feel the sunrise in this music and as it builds and grows it takes me to different heights. I have a different starting-point – I’m no longer in the well of despair and am not listening from the dark depths of grief. I still feel it in my Heart Chakra, but this is where it starts, not where it grows to. That promise of peace has been realised and I am now feeling deeper into the emotion of the composer. I don’t know his story, but this piece was written from the heart. And it is beautiful.
This is a link to this album. I’d love to hear your thoughts…..
I have been a person easily moved to tears all my life. Many situations move me in such a way, but especially those situations where I feel vulnerable. It is the common belief that such tears are a sign of weakness that has lead many people to belittle me and also, to under-estimate me.
For most of my life I have worked hard not to allow those tears to flow so easily and the result was disastrous – I reached a point where I couldn’t stop them. I had a breakdown 5 years ago.
It’s been a long journey back from that dark place and tears have, many times, lead the way. But these have often been cathartic. A release of emotions too long squished down. The releasing of such emotions eventually allowed me to examine them, to understand why I feel so deeply and to learn to flip almost every situation that previously caused me so many problems. Instead of squishing the emotion, bottling it up until it explodes in tears, I seek the lesson, the joy, the love in each event. That light is always there even though I sometimes have to dig deep to find it.
The result is someone who is (most of the time) standing in her Power. Who understands her strengths – and her weaknesses. Who understands that tears are not a sign of weakness, but are often a sign that there is work to do.
Recently I was talking with someone I hold in especial high regard; we discussed one of the areas where I feel vulnerable and I felt the tears form. There were many choices before me at that time. I could be embarrassed and feel weak for showing these tears and therefore squash them down. I could let them flow and tell myself I was being honest with my emotions, but also aware that if I did that there would be an element of “Poor Me” which is something I abhor. Or I could chose to see the lesson, the compassion and yes, the Love that my vulnerable situation has to show me – the “What is possible from this position?”
From a position of vulnerability there IS a whole heap of possibilities, they just have to be recognised and the work to change that area of vulnerability to be started. Recognition is the first step.
Auri’An (Sue Thomson) lives in Cardwell, Queensland and is the Founder of Ki’An Healing and Helping You. She is a Meditation Therapist and Holistic Counsellor, Spiritual Teacher/Healer, Energy Healer, Belly Dance teacher…….
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